Just like an Isrealite...I am afraid. So afraid that my arm will always be hanging at my side, that I will never play my guitar again. I afraid I will never do the Virginia Reel again, (its not any fun unless you can take a firm grip and swing). Well today I was in church today and I discovered could raise my arm at the elbow, something I could not do before. Thats huge!!! Your healing me, I said to God.
But what about next week , when am assailed by doubts, can't do something , and I am frustrated. The Isrealites faced obstacle after obstacle, and each time they doubted their deliverence. They forgot how God had just, yesterday, fed them, and found water for them, drown the whole army of Egyptians to set them free by parting the SEA!!!
God does not take pleasure in the horse or the legs of man, but those who fear Him and who trust in His mercy!!
TRUST!!
Sunday, August 17, 2008
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
When all else fails ... use your teeth!
Life with one hand.
Ever try and butter a bagel with out the other hand holding it?? You can almost do it with the bagel on a towel, so does'nt slide around to much, almost.
Opening things.....
Zippers, plastic storage bags, bagels in the big long plastic bags, just to name a few. Paper plates wrapped up in plastic, chips,(any kind), just to name a few more. Classy , opening thing s with one's teeth. So refined! I guess what it boils down to is I don't want to ask for help every time I turn around. So you gotta do what you have to do. WARNING!! Try it only in the privacy of your own home.
There is also the knee hold. Mayo, bottles of soda, lotion, (that can only be applied to your right arm, since the gumby trick does'nt work) you name it, my favorite thing is opening thing that have been refrigerated, when I am wearing shorts .
Ever try and butter a bagel with out the other hand holding it?? You can almost do it with the bagel on a towel, so does'nt slide around to much, almost.
Opening things.....
Zippers, plastic storage bags, bagels in the big long plastic bags, just to name a few. Paper plates wrapped up in plastic, chips,(any kind), just to name a few more. Classy , opening thing s with one's teeth. So refined! I guess what it boils down to is I don't want to ask for help every time I turn around. So you gotta do what you have to do. WARNING!! Try it only in the privacy of your own home.
There is also the knee hold. Mayo, bottles of soda, lotion, (that can only be applied to your right arm, since the gumby trick does'nt work) you name it, my favorite thing is opening thing that have been refrigerated, when I am wearing shorts .
Friday, July 25, 2008
Your humming along,, and BAM!!!!
There I was just humming along, for the most part minding my own business, and BAM!!!!
Life changes in a second, one minute your walking and talking, the next day you can't do either. How can I explain it, how can I make you ,the reader, all three of you, see what this is like. I used to throw a ball from third base like a rocket, now I can't even move my fingers!! this is a cruel joke some one played on me. God???
Do I sound like I am complaining ? Maybe I am.... but mostly want you, the three readers, to understand how fast life can change, AND what this has done to change my life. Well first of I have a new mission in life, I want to minister to people who have had....heart attacks???? no, broken backs???? no wrong again,,,,,, strokes, yeah people who have had strokes!!!! SURPRISE ! I want to, with Gods help, reach into that lonely, broken place, and pull as many people out of that " hell" as I can. I want to be there to cheer them on, pick them up when they need it, and listen to them cry or laugh, usually at inappropriate times, and do it with them!!!! Try and show them what a LOT of hard work will do, and show them its worth it in order to get your life back. To push the limits of everything!!! Try everything!!!!
How my life has changed.....
I made dinner now twice. First time I needed help with opening the cans for tuna pasta salad, but next time I made the meatloaf all alone. I cook pancakes, sometimes with shells for added protein or roughage, and I have ventured into grilled cheese some. This has been a real personal victory, for someone who likes to cook, I want everyone to revel in it with me, dinner that I cook, all two of them are to be savored and enjoyed, I ask everyone to stare at the meal for a few minutes before we start.
I am venturing to talk on the phone now. How life has changed. I have dreaded talking on the phone!!!
I can shower alone, not Michael MINDED, not all ,but for my sake he is glad to see me graduate.
I am only on two meds. now, and it will be done to one in a couple of weeks.
I can walk in the driveway now!!! The rocks used to throw me off balance.
I am able to do the laundry now, I've been at it for a couple of months.
I am not in much pain now, only once in a while my arm hurts.
A million more things have changed since the stroke, things I now can do and things I can't do YET, the next big hurdle is driving, this has been one of the hardest things , I hate being trapped...... stay tuned that's gonna soon change.
Life changes in a second, one minute your walking and talking, the next day you can't do either. How can I explain it, how can I make you ,the reader, all three of you, see what this is like. I used to throw a ball from third base like a rocket, now I can't even move my fingers!! this is a cruel joke some one played on me. God???
Do I sound like I am complaining ? Maybe I am.... but mostly want you, the three readers, to understand how fast life can change, AND what this has done to change my life. Well first of I have a new mission in life, I want to minister to people who have had....heart attacks???? no, broken backs???? no wrong again,,,,,, strokes, yeah people who have had strokes!!!! SURPRISE ! I want to, with Gods help, reach into that lonely, broken place, and pull as many people out of that " hell" as I can. I want to be there to cheer them on, pick them up when they need it, and listen to them cry or laugh, usually at inappropriate times, and do it with them!!!! Try and show them what a LOT of hard work will do, and show them its worth it in order to get your life back. To push the limits of everything!!! Try everything!!!!
How my life has changed.....
I made dinner now twice. First time I needed help with opening the cans for tuna pasta salad, but next time I made the meatloaf all alone. I cook pancakes, sometimes with shells for added protein or roughage, and I have ventured into grilled cheese some. This has been a real personal victory, for someone who likes to cook, I want everyone to revel in it with me, dinner that I cook, all two of them are to be savored and enjoyed, I ask everyone to stare at the meal for a few minutes before we start.
I am venturing to talk on the phone now. How life has changed. I have dreaded talking on the phone!!!
I can shower alone, not Michael MINDED, not all ,but for my sake he is glad to see me graduate.
I am only on two meds. now, and it will be done to one in a couple of weeks.
I can walk in the driveway now!!! The rocks used to throw me off balance.
I am able to do the laundry now, I've been at it for a couple of months.
I am not in much pain now, only once in a while my arm hurts.
A million more things have changed since the stroke, things I now can do and things I can't do YET, the next big hurdle is driving, this has been one of the hardest things , I hate being trapped...... stay tuned that's gonna soon change.
WOW!!
WOW , who would of thought people are this way. I am shocked at how people treat me since the stroke. I have tools at my disposal to deal with it , it's hurts don't get me wrong, but eventually God can heal , and I have the power to forgive. So in the end I am free , but this has made me acutely aware of other in my shoes.
Often you are treated as a non entitey, a thing, without a opinion or a brain.
Probably the older a person is who has had such a life altering event , the more they disregard them.
Often you are treated as a non entitey, a thing, without a opinion or a brain.
Probably the older a person is who has had such a life altering event , the more they disregard them.
Friday, June 27, 2008
I am not a
Just because I talk like I am "mentally challenged" (I think that is PC way to put it) doesn't mean I am! I was talking with someone about selling a house and in the course of the conversation I mentioned " capitol gains" they looked shocked, I was thinking like an adult!!!! This does not fit their box. Yes ,I have memory problems, when I was in rehab, a week after the stroke, I couldn't remember how to put my shirt on, but was an ADULT who couldn't remember. I wasn't going to say anything about it here but somewhere , somehow , if only can reach one person, so that a victim of stroke is treated with dignity, then it worth looking as if I am a complainer. AND ANOTHER thing, stop saying "honey" and "sweetie" I can put up with the waitress doing it , she doesn't know me, but stop looking down at me ! By the way can you tell I am PMS? nnnnnnooooo.
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
Upledger Institute
My week at Upledger went really well. There were times when I thought I couldn't take any more, 6 hours a day, for 5 days, sometimes as many as 3 people working on me at one time.
Well you could say I got my monies worth.
Well the results keep coming for as much as 6 weeks, but when I came home I could walk with out a walker or my cane.... I still keep it close by, to keep people in line.
My arms still working on waking up. stay tuned! Thanks for praying.
Well you could say I got my monies worth.
Well the results keep coming for as much as 6 weeks, but when I came home I could walk with out a walker or my cane.... I still keep it close by, to keep people in line.
My arms still working on waking up. stay tuned! Thanks for praying.
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
Courage ????
People keep telling me I am courageous. I have news for you I didn't wait in line for this, nor did I decide to sign up to be a part of Gods plan, I obviously didn't read the fine print if I did sign somewhere!! I would get off this train NOW if I could, but its not being presented to me as a option. If I could conjure up a little miracle I would, I want out!!! I think it says volumes that God had to do something so radical , so seemingly cruel to get through to me! This is not a profile in courage.
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