Never Under Estimate the Power of Gratitude!

My good friend Terry was telling our prayer gp how she's just trying to look at the little thing s that she is grateful for, that was about 2 weeks ago. This morning I woke up and the "ugly one" was hanging around, whispering , as he so often does, the annoying "lispy" kind of whispers. I hate that . "So much of "you" who you are, is gone. " "lisp ,lisp, slurp" "So much of the physical that you loved so much is gone. You can't ride the motorcycle, can't cut the grass, you can't ride your horse, can't even GET to him, while the grass is long!! Can't go for runs, can't even go for a walk, like I used to. Can't get the tick crawling up my left arm!!! And the list goes on and on"...................

But...........

I have a lot to be grateful for! That I made it out of UVA hospital alive, that I made it to the door with all, well almost all my body parts intact. Nearly lost my spleen, gallbladder, my life! So my job is to center on what is now "me" and make the most of it. The new" me " is kinder, gentler, ( with out my "right hook"..) the new "me"thinks before I speak, I have to say the words in my mind first otherwise its all a jumble. I can do my garden ahhhhhhhhhhh, so satisfying. I can read!!!I can talk!! I can shop, ( despite the stares I get when I'm out, learning to cope) I can drive! 6 hp is almost as good as 1 horsepower. I can pray, even more I can hear GOD again!!! AHHHHHH I really missed Him when I first was recovering. AND I didn't even know I missed HIM. Figure that one out!

I want to know Gods purpose (s) in allowing "ugly" this much access to my life. It is a battle that I face everyday, to look beyond the flesh, beyond the outward , to the hidden place, where Gods work, His finest work is done.

I want to DO!!!

Thats right I want to DO! Just like Martha "did" things. Only difference is Martha complained the Mary didn't help her, didn't carry her weight. I'm not complaining about others....... " One thing is needful.
God has seen fit to restore many things, the other day He asked me " What have done with what I've given you?"Good question. I'd have to say I've squandered about 50% of my newly regained abilities on earthly things, selfish pursuits. If "One thing is needful " is the "gauge " then I've given the Lord 50%. He gave me a picture of myself   IF I could "do" everything I wanted to what that would look like. It wasn't pretty. Face it, spring brings the" mad woman" out in me.
Be still.... and know that HE is God.