ooops, she said sheepishly.........
I've been befriending a person who has suffered terribly, real abuse. In sharing with her it seemed sometimes she would just bleep out the things I said to her that she didn't like, things like what HER responsibilities as a adult are now as a Christian, things such as anger.... She would talk "over" me and change the subject, I really couldn't put my finger on what it was, until God showed the same tendency in me. The expression was different but the root was the same. Having suffered does not ENTITLE anyone to bad behavior, emotional sin, anger , the unbridled kind.
Yeah there are reasons , very good reasons why you would have this tendency, but if you are a child of God there is no excuse. Jesus suffered, He didn't have to, he led the way to forgiveness , even hanging on the cross, even while the taunts were ringing in the air! If He's in you , you can "tap in" to that, but you will have to surrender your "right" to be angry,etc. It is a decision, moment by moment, everyday.
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I've had too many of those one-handed fits to count. Asked for forgiveness too many times to count..
You are right. I came across this old post -- read the whole thing -- and realized I have felt much the same (and recently). I think I am entitled to be grumpy when I don't feel good -- overly quiet and hard to read when I'd rather hide away from the world than be in and amongst it all despite how I might feel -- but the truth is, as a daughter of Christ, I am entitled to freedom and choice. Those without Christ just respond in whatever way they have always responded. But me? I get to choose -- I get to be something more than what is expected. And you do, too. :) It's hard choosing to overcome yourself and your obstacles, but I think finally choosing to and choosing happiness over frustration does eventually pay off. You encouraged me through your little spill of thoughts. :)
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