Yeah there is a reason..but no excuse

Hey I've got it rough....... can't ya see!? Last month the Lord showed me something that saddened me. I was behaving like I was entitled to loose my temper, even throw things in frustration LIKE A CHILD!!! Sometimes when I can't do something simple, that usually requires 2 hands , I ocassionally pitch a fit. Like opening something. When all my various tricks don't work, I AM MAD !! I'M ENTITLED TO BE MAD!!!!!! Who dare s to tell me I'm not! My heavenly Papa does.
ooops, she said sheepishly.........
I've been befriending a person who has suffered terribly, real abuse. In sharing with her it seemed sometimes she would just bleep out the things I said to her that she didn't like, things like what HER responsibilities as a adult are now as a Christian, things such as anger.... She would talk "over" me and change the subject, I really couldn't put my finger on what it was, until God showed the same tendency in me. The expression was different but the root was the same. Having suffered does not ENTITLE anyone to bad behavior, emotional sin, anger , the unbridled kind.
Yeah there are reasons , very good reasons why you would have this tendency, but if you are a child of God there is no excuse. Jesus suffered, He didn't have to, he led the way to forgiveness , even hanging on the cross, even while the taunts were ringing in the air! If He's in you , you can "tap in" to that, but you will have to surrender your "right" to be angry,etc. It is a decision, moment by moment, everyday.