Every now and then....

Every now and then the reality gangs up on me and hits me square in face. Usually by this time of the year my gardens are well underway, not this year. Oh I still have plans but I'm relying on others to make it happen, I HATE THAT !!!! Your breaking my heart Papa....

So I will make deal with you God. Give me the measure of the spirit, YOUR SPIRIT, the measure you have allowed "ugly" to take from me in the flesh. I will be satisfied.
Give me in the Spirit the measure of your Spirit to replace the "friends" that have gone away.....
Give me in the Spirit the measure that I sorely miss in singing praise.... give me in the Spirit the full measure of the strength that was mine, remember I WAS STRONG!! Ok I wasn't as strong as when I was 30, but at least I had 2 hands, right?

OR you can restore all these things that were mine before, but only if I can keep the measure of Your Spirit. The full measure of our deal. Does this work for you? Sign right here___________________. OR just say "Yes" That's good enough for me.

I love you Lord.